May I ask you sir
If it was fair to leave me alone in silence
And allow rumour to spread because of your sadness
And allow tongues to wag because you were immature
You thought you were justified enough but it never happened
May I ask you sir
If it was fair enough to leave me begging in silence
And allow life to continue
As you danced the night away
With me weeping in silence
Were you justified or simply running away from your confusion?
May I ask you sir
If it was fair enough to leave me unknown in the silent
Had the oceans swept me away
While you fought for all that you could
To seize enjoyment
Have you found what you truly wanted?
If you have already found the answers,
Then justify this silence
For as I know sir
I slept well enough to be left out as the time trickles
But I’ve been accompanied by dreams of what that is real
I was made to feel like nothing by you
Like as though it never happened
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As the winds of change conquers the very beginning of a new world
I settled for some justification and knew the answers
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If sir, you are a thoughtful gentleman?
Wise at heart and opened in your vessels
Broad in your thinking and deep in your soul
Why do you hurt for pleasure to heal yours
Why do you fire attacks at ambiguous platforms
Why do you chase for attention to justify your happiness
Why do you play the man to build up your reputation
For pride, you discarded your honoured worthiness
For each bicker trying to be right, you lost count of the value of your words
To be justified, it seems
But here are the answers
“Dear sir it was
It could have been
It would never happen again
A shame it is
I allowed myself to sink into blame
Realising at the end of the day
Why should I feel this way?
You made a choice and I fought back then
You loved simple revenge to stand up for your shame
You desire hopping for new emotions to add to your stories
A seemingly picturesque happiness you try to fork in
While I simply want peace and a healthier body
Finally settled down for the better
And said I let you down
But you let me down worst
Looking back at the fool that I was
Putting myself through endless races of emotions against emotions
Hurting others who shouldn’t be inflicted
While you ran around to look for justification
But there will never be
As long as you continue running in circles”
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